I'm Tired

This post probably comes under the heading, Whin-y, Complain-y stuff, but we all have our moments, so just shut-up and listen... (I'm kidding, about the shut-up part at least... The title should clue you into my current mood. You may find yourself asking, why Karin, Why are you tired? well, I will tell you, not only why, but what I am tired of.

I am tired. Tired of not getting enough sleep, (I really like sleep), Tired of having no money,(although at the moment I have more money than I have had in a very long time, but don't worry I am doing a great job of spending the crap out of it...), I am tired of listening to nameless, previously mentioned PUTZ teacher, and the droning that I have to listen to. I am physically and mentally just plain Tired. I am also tired of Being alone. Of not having someone to be tired with (:D), I am tired of being the *ONLY* eternally single almost twenty-five year old I know. I am tired of taking the DAMN bus and running my daily schedule around the bus schedule. I am tired of being the nicest, most giving person I know. I am also tired of not doing the things that I really want to do, and instead constantly doing the things I HATE, so much so that some people think I actually like doing them. I don't, I hate cleaning, It just always has to be done, but at a point I'd rather have a mess and a fun time than a clean house and no fun. I am tired of Judge Shows, of Talk Radio and of annoying Movies. I am tired of myself and who I have become. This is so not what I had planned when I was younger. I am tired of (most of) my family. I am just tired. and I bet that by now you are tired of hearing me tell you what I am tired of, but thank you for bearing with me. Most of the things I am tired of, I am also annoyed by, but I will resist the urge to elaborate... In the mean time, I may run outside and cry. or scream. I'm undecided.

Now that I have done that, even though I don't quite feel better yet, lets see what I am grateful for; I am grateful for Safeway Guy! I am grateful for my Grandma, for Patty, for the second grade class, who for three hours a day help me to be centered and calm. I am grateful for music, For hot showers, For BED. I am also grateful for hot tea, and for my iPod (even though the damn thing does not work well most of the time.)

I am grateful for Patty, who I know is the only one who will read this, and I apologize Patty, for being so rant-y.